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for meanttobeabeta: October 2013

He always knew they'd find Erica and Boyd somehow. Granted, part of him always figured it would be in pieces in the woods, like the nightmare he can't stop himself from having even now, a year later, but still. It would be closure. A bigger, better part of him thought it might be kinda like an episode of CSI: Supernatural Crimes, with his brains and Derek's wolfy senses teaming up to track the Alpha pack back to their lair. A heroic rescue, just in the nick of time, and he could make some off-handed Batman joke to Erica as they escaped a possibly exploding house or something equally badass. Something he could use to show himself see, sometimes there can be happy endings. He didn't let himself think about not finding them, and he never thought it would be like this.

It was just an accident. He hadn't even been looking, too busy trying to juggle his groceries. He was heading to Scott's for a study session with the gang. A gang he didn't really feel like he was quite part of, like there was something missing from it. So he compensated with snacks. It was while shoving a bag of 2-liter sodas into the back of his Jeep without crushing the chips in the next back when he noticed Mrs. McCall. Some kid helping her with her groceries. Stiles there, about to walk over and say hi, when the guy opens his backseat, and there's a ridiculous leopard-print scarf he'd recognize anywhere. He knows. And then he realizes, as he jumps into the Jeep and starts it up, intent on following to make sure nothing happens to the closest thing he's known to a mom since his died. That's when he sees that car pull into the house next to Scott's, and he makes a complete 180, driving for the warehouse district and the only person he knows to call at this moment. His phone is already glued to his face two seconds in.

"Come on, dude, pick up."

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"Yes, go back. Dude, I have to. I can't just leave them there." He isn't surprised, exactly, by Derek's attitude. It is a dumb idea, but he can't not. They need someone paranoid enough to keep an eye out, and he can't exactly just clear them out. He was just there. A text is just bound to make them suspicious, anyway, and when they get suspicious, they turn into the frigging Scooby Gang. All jokes aside, he's beginning to think he's less Fred and more Scooby.

But Derek is right, even if he isn't saying all of what he's worried about out loud. The more time Scott has to think about things, the more time he has to come up with some brilliant idea that gets someone killed, or at least seriously traumatized. See also his last 'brilliant idea.' Fortunately (God, is that the right word?), he's gotten good at lying to everyone over the last few years, and spending time with Derek and Scott both has taught him the fine art of misdirection. Half-truths don't count as lies on the wolf lie detector, apparently, not as long as you believe what you're saying. And then immediately change the subject. Again, good at that.

"I won't tell them anything tonight. If I do, Scott's going to get all of us killed by charging in headfirst. I'll just keep a lookout, and get him to my place tomorrow. We can't do this tonight, we need a plan. Besides, it's not like they'll be looking for me, right? Not a wolf and all."

His manic smile feels forced, even to him.

Derek paces away at Stiles' continued insistence that he's going back. It's bad enough that the Alpha Pack has two of his betas in their control, that they have another one of them right next door where they can lay hands on him at any time, to let Stiles go back, so close, where anything could happen and there's not a damn thing he could do about it, seems to be pushing every button he has.

But of course Stiles wants to go. Of course he wants to protect the others. The strangest thing here is probably that Derek's not even questioning that having him there actually would be an asset to the others. What has him rounding back on Stiles with a snarl is the boy's last words. "Are you really stupid enough to think they don't care about you? That they don't know you're important?" Because there's no way they can not.

The surprise on his face is obvious when Derek turns on him. Important? He's not important. They've been going after wolves, after all. Taking Erica and Boyd, moving in next to Scott, it's silly to think they'd pay attention to him. It's not like anyone really has, pretty much ever.

Except Derek came for him when he went missing, he thinks again, and despite the immediate frustration that's his response to being yelled at, there's a little part of him that's actually pleased. "I'm not stupid. They've been targeting the wolves around here, in case you hadn't noticed. Your house, Scott's house, Erica and Boyd. Nobody's done anything about Alison, even though she's part of this mess, too. So I think it's pretty safe to assume I'm not a target, just collateral," he snaps back, that little muscle in his jaw twitching as he clenches his teeth. "And I have to go back, anyway. Unless you want something stupid happening with them?" He knows it's bound to happen.

Derek huffs in exasperation and scowls at Stiles. "They've been targeting me and what's mine. Or should be." Erica and Boyd, his betas. Scott, who should have been his, if not for his stubborn refusal. That leaves Isaac, who's probably still his in name only... and Stiles who's more his than any of the rest have ever been, whether he realizes it, wants it, or not.

"They don't care about Alison because she's not important to me." His scowl deepens and he turns away, because he's not going to say it, Stiles can figure it out for himself.

Stiles has always been pretty crap at causality problems. If/thens are definitely not his strong suit, so it takes him a minute to work through it. If Alison isn't a target because she doesn't personally matter to Derek, then Stiles is a target because...oh. Well, all things considered, it shouldn't be as much of a surprise as it is. Still, it takes him a minute to really process, but when it finally sinks in he can't quite hide the surprised, pleased expression on his face. Good thing Derek isn't looking to see that.

It doesn't change things, Stiles tells himself. They still have to do something about the alpha pack, he still has to go back to Scott's. It's just nice to know he matters. At least a little. The fact that it's Derek saying it... well, that he'll process later. "It doesn't change the fact that I have to go back," he finally says, mollified just a little. Finally calm, or at least calmer. "I'll be careful. And if anything happens, I'll call." It's a little stupidly hard to resist the urge to try and take Derek with him. It just feels more... something. Jingling his keys in his hand, he waits a minute longer, not sure how to just leave. It feels like he should say something.

Derek doesn't watch while Stiles works out his meaning, but he can smell the change in his scent and he turns back in time to catch the look of surprise on the boy's face. It makes him wonder just what he'd thought before, though, how hard it is for him to believe that he matters to someone... and how the hell he managed to do something so stupid as to let a human become important to him. Stiles is, though, and considering the current threat it would be stupid not to make that clear... ish.

Derek's scowl deepens at the kid's repeated insistence that he has to go back, when all he wants is to get everyone the hell out of there and away from danger. There's no telling when the Alpha Pack will decide to make their move, and almost everyone in that house is associated him in some way. A valuable warning or hostage. "You'll dial my number into your phone before you leave, so all you need to do is hit one button to call me. And I'll be close by." Not close enough for the Alphas to hear or scent, which means not close enough for him to hear or scent Stiles, but at least close enough he can respond quickly.

He doesn't know why he's so surprised, really. Derek's been coming by a lot, and not just to make sure he hasn't ended up getting pod-peopled again. He hounds Stiles about his homework, bitches about his taste in music, reads comics when he thinks Stiles isn't looking. It's almost comfortable. He guesses he just wasn't thinking past that. He's been doing a lot of that lately, actually going out of his way to not think about what things mean. But mattering to someone else isn't something he's ever been good at registering. Really, his entire life and self-value are more or less defined by what he does for other people. Without Stiles, his dad would just work forever and eat nothing but double-bacon-bypass-burgers and be dead of a heart attack by fifty. Without Stiles, Scott would never have gone out for lacrosse, would never have passed eighth grade English, would never have gone into the preserve and ended up a werewolf... okay, maybe that's a bad example. But he's nearly positive that without him, Derek would forget what it's like to be human, and that's not okay. It's good that he matters. It is.

"I already have you on speed dial," Stiles answers brightly, holding up his phone and showing Derek the illuminated screen. Number two, right next to his dad's cell. It says something about how important the older man has become. Or maybe just about how much trouble Stiles gets into. "So, no worries, right? Except all the worries. You know what I mean. I'll call if anything shows up. Or if anything weird happens. Or... you know." He stops his babbling with an effort, knowing if he starts now he's never going to be able to stay cool for Scott, and that's important for making this work.

Derek doesn't know why he's surprised to be on Stiles' speed dial, though he feels justified in his surprise at being number two. If he'd considered he'd have expected to be... he's not actually sure, now that he does think about it. Certainly behind Scott as well as the Sheriff. Maybe Lydia and Allison as well, though he has to admit he's not sure if Stiles has had much to do with either of ty hem lately.

"All right." And when he settles a hand firmly on Stiles' shoulder it's definitely only to stem the tide of babble. "Any sign of trouble, though, anything even remotely weird, and you call. If you think it's too dangerous to let the call connect just let it ring once and drop the call. I'll come."

Scott's been number nine on his speed dial since he got his first cell phone, thanks to a long-running and not so funny to anyone else joke. Lydia he doesn't have an excuse to keep on speed dial yet, sadly, and Alison... Alison finally made it onto his speed dial three months ago because he finally admitted defeat in the battle for any time with Scott and she's more likely to answer than his supposed best friend when the two of them are together. He's not sure if it's sad or just appropriate that the number two on his list after knee-jerk dad reaction is a surly, taciturn wolfman who's just as likely to slap him upside the head for getting into trouble as he is to rescue him. Probably both. Also weird that he trusts Derek to do the latter, always. Almost as weird as the fact that that touch to his shoulders does wonders to take away the last of the panic, and he feels this bizarre urge to touch Derek's hand. Cling, more like, kind of like a safety blanket, which is totally not manly or adult or probably okay.

So instead, he just takes a deep breath, letting most of the tension out of his shoulders, and looks up at Derek for a moment. Dark eyes meet green ones and after a long moment Stiles nods. "I know you will. It'll be okay. We'll be okay. They don't know I noticed, and I still have to pass this Chem test, and Harris still hates me, so... going now. I'll call you later when I get home." To report and give Derek a meeting time. And okay, maybe to let him know he's okay. Maybe that matters too.

Derek looks steadily back, not moving his hand away as he feels the tension ease from Stiles' shoulders and his scent goes at least a little less anxious and distressed. "The second you get home. And don't hesitate to call, even if you're not sure something's wrong. Don't take stupid risks." Because if anyone's going to do something stupid it's only marginally less likely to be Stiles than Scott. "And don't say anything while you're there, they're probably listening to everything."

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